sometimes i feel tense at work. It is not the work load. i actually wouldnt mind a few more pounds to carry on my back. It is actually the environment, that i am having a wee bit problem with.

It reminded me to the time when i first started uni in Bingen. Didnt really understand what people were saying, i kept a bit to myself. until i was used to the german slang and dialect of that town(kampung), and could understand what people were saying, Only then did i join a bit in the conversations, and followed classmates to the cafe and such. Life wasnt so depressing anymore, and it got better.

Here at my workplace, many speak mandarin. I know they are not talking about me. its just... i dont understand, meaning.. i cant join in... meaning, i'd just keep to myself, and finish my meal... all in silence, while keeping a straight and i dont mind face. it wouldnt do to burst out crying right?

Last time... I had to learn German. exams were in german, Hey, i was in germany... I needed to learn to mengembek.

Do i need to learn mandarin? but i dont have the time, and i am not even in Mandariny. So i dont need to learn the language of the goats, since i'm not really in a kandang kambing... do i?

When i was in matriculation (for those who dont know... i was in matrix labuan for 3 months), during the orientation debate, a guy with a very thick sabah accent said (and i like to repeat this many times): "masuk kandang kambing mengembek, tapi kalau saya masuk kandang kambing itu, saya ajar kambing itu bercakap."

Heh. Priceless lah.