Will this be my last blog session in germany? I hope to come back again, so i'd say, last blogging session in germany for 2008. i was quite strong during the farewells, no tears came into view, but now, sitting on my mattress at home, they are starting to push their way forward.

the room is empty, my portion of the shelves in the bathroom, kitchen and fridge are empty, i already feel emptiness in the heart. i didnt think it would be so hard to leave. i am also supposed to sleep, as i will be driving tomorrow morning to the airport, however.... i feel that i have to watch the last german sunrise of 2008.

people might say(my makcik makcik), that going to germany caused me to lose lots of time studying. true, i graduated later than most of my friends and so. many, at my age are already climbing/building their carreer, starting families and such. however i dont regret one bit of my life in germany. ok, maybe i regret making friends in germany. it makes it even harder to leave. and i hate farewells.

i also dont regret my decision in coming home. i actually cant wait to see what the future holds for me. although i may leave with tears, i cant wait to see the family.

i am blessed with the experiences i've gone thru. grateful indeed.

tears... please stop.... ada rezeki, datang lah balik.